This is my life not yours!!!!!!!!

     Sometimes I feel just like wanna yell to my brother or anyone else, THIS IS MY LIFE NOT YOURS!!!! YOU HAVE NO RIGHT UPON MY LIFE OKAY!!!!!! why the hell I need to take care that home by myself??? does you all had ever help me??? what you guys know is just complaining.... complaint...complaint.... and complaint.... if you guys really feel that home is so terrible for you, just don't come back... get your hell out of that home okay!!
      You guys just know to say if you didnt had money tell us... how the hell i can tell you guys ha??? ahba told me dont ask money from ah jie and 4gu, second brother still studying, he didnt got enough money to use too, ah jie just say if ahba want to borrow money just give him.... how the hell i can give him, while i didnt got much money ha?? can you all think by yourself... you know what, you guys are confusing me... you guys make me so confuse okay.... you guys just like a jerks.... you guys just think I am wasting my money to buy those beads, so how you all explain with you guys buy the original DVD and VCD, branded clothes and modified yours cars.. think by yourself idiots.... I had my own hobbies too.... by the way, i use my own money, what the hell you guys care about???
       you guys just know told me to do this...to do that... have you all had ever think about me?? all people around me just thought i am okay... i am return back to before... but what i am gonna to tell you is, it cant go beck to before, something had lost... it will still lost, nothing can change it... maybe it is a destiny okay.... just dont just look at me but didnt really find out inside me is really okay or not.....
        if you looks outside me and didnt find out is the inside me is okay or not. You guys will be shock when I do something that you guys cant ever think about it....