actually, lately I realized that, since mom pass away, I become stronger in physical only, and I found out suddenly I just lost the feeling to love someone or find a boyfriend.. I dont know why, I just think that is not important, if just playing it is okay, but if want me serious in it, I cant not, and I just think that now everything I had to do by myself, I just need a listener, I just need a friend that can treat me so good, can listen to all my problem, but I am so sure that what I need is not a boyfriend... just a friend... maybe....
maybe I starts want to find someone very seriously, I dont played anymore... maybe.... maybe I am more mature now, evrything I want to do I will think very seriously first, even sometimes I know that what I am doing is wrong, but if I have reason I will do it even others will think negative about me. but what I really want to do is no matter I am doing what, I just want to tell him that I am so appreciate with evrything that he had help me and I really want to tell him what I think about him...
but sometimes I am so curious about him( the others him), if u didnt like me why you just didnt tell directly, what is mean with you not sure with it??? are you not sure that you like me?? or what??? why you not sure??
I really want to go back to my old school, I want to show him that I am diffrent now, I am not like before, I am more matured now. I will do the best to become the best in the school, believe me.
sometimes, I really want my life is just like in tv show or comic, easy and happy ending..but.... cant!!! i believe that sometimes i can changed my destiny... just watch and see..
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